I REALLY Will Try to do Better

I know I've been neglecting my responsibilities with this blog, but sometimes I honestly don't know or have things to write about. I will try to make it more of a priority....I promise.

The last time I wrote, it was about my excruciating back pain. To solve this problem, I started turning my bed in weird directions instead of my body. This helped along with prayer. I was prayed over and anointed at church and the pain disappeared. Iwas so relieved and happy to be pain-free. In addition to praying for my aching back, there was prayer for my healing and restoration of my spinal cord and nerves. I was not immediately healed, but I still believe that I will be healed.

Keep praying and believing.

I'm In So Much Pain

I awakened this morning in so much pain. The right side of my back is hurting so bad. It feels like a torn muscle. Now you may ask "what have I been doing to strain or tear muscles?" The only thing I know that could have caused this excruciating pain is me twisting my mid-section to either see the television or get in a comfortable position to go to sleep. Whatever the reason, this is NOT a good feeling. I just pray that this pain goes away and goes away quickly.

I'm So Far From Normal

It's 4 o'clock in the morning and instead of sleeping like a normal person, I'm wide awake. Why you ask? Because of pain. My back is hurting so bad and my fingers feel like they're getting tighter every minute. I don't know why my fingers are feeling like this, but I hope it ends soon.

On another note: I don't think I'm crazy or anything, but it feels like something is terribly wrong with my hip bone. I think something's growing near the place where my bone graft is located. It just feels different to me, but my mom thinks I'm crazy. As I write about this, I do suddenly feel a little off. Hope it's nothing.

I'm Late....As Usual

I know it's a bit late, but this is my first post of '09, so I must say HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!! Last year went by extremely fast, in my opinion, but I'm glad it's over with and into another one. I must say, this year kinda got off to a rough start for me and I'm only eight days in. Now, if I can't do anything, I think I can tolerate pain. I mean, I usually hurt daily, but without complaint. But, I hope these past few days isn't an indicator for what's ahead for me this year.

For starters, my wisdom teeth decided to make an appearance this year, and we all know how painful a toothache is. I mean I was hurting so badly that I called for a dentist. This even surprised me, but that is what pain will do to you.

I also was tricked because I thought that if I started back taking my medicine, I would stop all this weird sweating that's doing a number on my hair. But noooo, I'm still sweating and in essence, going to the beauty shop in vain. But I did make an appointment and hopefully two weeks from now, I'll know why I've been sweating and ended it, too.

I know I haven't written much, but I'm tired now. I'll be back real soon.

Pain Is No Joke

So I haven't been feeling myself for a couple days now. This pain in my hands, legs, and back has been kicking my butt. One may ask, "How can you be hurting so much if you have no feeling in those areas?" I don't know, but I can't dismiss the fact that I'm hurting. My fingers feel like I have them balled up while simultaneously sticking them with stick or push pins. My legs and back feel like they are on fire and I keep getting these internal shocks going through my leg. The one direction I thought that I could lay and be comfortable isn't working for me anymore. Something is going on and it needs to be fixed immediately. This aching isn't going to get it.

I was once told that a man who was paralyzed told his doctor that he was hurting. The doctor replied that it was all in his head. The paralyzed man told the doctor if he was to hit him with a hammer, would that just be all in his head?

I wish a doctor or anyone would tell me that my pain is in my head.