Doctors, Doctors, Doctors

I've said before that I HATE, HATE, HATE going to the doctor, hospital, or anyplace of that nature. Yesterday I went to the doctor to check on this sweating that has been happening. Well, what do you know, I didn't see my neurosurgeon, but rather a nurse practitioner and I must say she was extremely nice and I may have found a new doctor..lol.

Well, after seeing the doctor, I found out today that I have even more doctor to go to. Because I can't tell if something is hurting on me, tests are needed to confirm that I'm healthy and okay. I now have bone scans and other tests scheduled for later this week. I'm not scared or anything, which is surprising. I just want to find out why I've been sweating and get my heel healed. I also had blood work done and I found out the best needle for me, the butterfly.

I hope everything's okay with me and this has taught me to pay close attention to my body and when something changes, take note and get it checked out.

Therapy Ends, Motivation Kicks In

There are so many things that I want to do on my own, but find them quite difficult or sometimes virtually impossible. But today after talking with my therapist, I have a renewed interest in trying out a couple things. Things designed to make me a more independent, self-reliant person. Because independence is so important to me, I feel that the more independent I am, the happier I'll be.

My therapy ended today, so I was curious as to what I could continue to do on my own and Becky provided me with a lot of information. I am definitely excited to try the exercises, I just hope the fam is willing to assist. You see, my family gets on me about not doing things or not trying or wanting to do new things, but then they get irritated when disturbed. I'm like, "I can't win." How can you insist I be as independent as possible, but you get mad when I want to try something and need your help? I think I'm going to disregard all the negativity and do what's best for me. I'm ready and excited about my life and things to come.

Side note: my emotions are like a roller coaster.

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I'm So Far From Normal

It's 4 o'clock in the morning and instead of sleeping like a normal person, I'm wide awake. Why you ask? Because of pain. My back is hurting so bad and my fingers feel like they're getting tighter every minute. I don't know why my fingers are feeling like this, but I hope it ends soon.

On another note: I don't think I'm crazy or anything, but it feels like something is terribly wrong with my hip bone. I think something's growing near the place where my bone graft is located. It just feels different to me, but my mom thinks I'm crazy. As I write about this, I do suddenly feel a little off. Hope it's nothing.

I'm Late....As Usual

I know it's a bit late, but this is my first post of '09, so I must say HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!! Last year went by extremely fast, in my opinion, but I'm glad it's over with and into another one. I must say, this year kinda got off to a rough start for me and I'm only eight days in. Now, if I can't do anything, I think I can tolerate pain. I mean, I usually hurt daily, but without complaint. But, I hope these past few days isn't an indicator for what's ahead for me this year.

For starters, my wisdom teeth decided to make an appearance this year, and we all know how painful a toothache is. I mean I was hurting so badly that I called for a dentist. This even surprised me, but that is what pain will do to you.

I also was tricked because I thought that if I started back taking my medicine, I would stop all this weird sweating that's doing a number on my hair. But noooo, I'm still sweating and in essence, going to the beauty shop in vain. But I did make an appointment and hopefully two weeks from now, I'll know why I've been sweating and ended it, too.

I know I haven't written much, but I'm tired now. I'll be back real soon.