I'm So Far From Normal

It's 4 o'clock in the morning and instead of sleeping like a normal person, I'm wide awake. Why you ask? Because of pain. My back is hurting so bad and my fingers feel like they're getting tighter every minute. I don't know why my fingers are feeling like this, but I hope it ends soon.

On another note: I don't think I'm crazy or anything, but it feels like something is terribly wrong with my hip bone. I think something's growing near the place where my bone graft is located. It just feels different to me, but my mom thinks I'm crazy. As I write about this, I do suddenly feel a little off. Hope it's nothing.